“Watching you walk out of my life does not make me bitter or cynical about love. But rather makes me realize that if I wanted so much to be with the wrong person how beautiful it will be when the right one comes along.”
I believe that people come and go into our lives for specific reasons. Before I met Travis I was living the crazy single life, perfectly content with being a "serial dater." Never anyone serious, never anyone to bring home... just people I would have fun with, get bored, and poof on to the next one. I pictured my future wedding day as just a party with close friends and family not celebrating a marriage, but celebrating my independence... And I could wear a white dress for kicks!... Haha this sounds sooo silly now that I think about it, but I was a hopeless romantic too afraid to fall in love.
Anyway, I think that through this relationship, I have learned, that I do want a life partner, and I don't want to be single for forever. Don't get me wrong, I'm not on this mission to find "the one" or anything like that. I think I just realized that I don't have to have a heart of stone, and that it is okay to let people in and trust them. While I am sad this relationship didn't work out, I accept that God has a better plan for me and that everything happens for a reason.
I am so thankful for all of you that called and checked on me, and for those of you that took me out and spent time with me. It's made these past few days so much less painful! This weekend was a blast! Friday night I stayed out with my girls until 4:30 in the morning!! OMG... I haven't done anything wild like that in forever! We had so much fun singing and dancing the night away!! Saturday, I sang Karaoke, I know I must've sounded awful, but it was so fun to let loose! Today I subbed at the nursery, and I went to an award ceremony, because I got a scholarship for the fall!!!
Anyway, I'm still looking for jobs everywhere, including Corpus, New Braunfels, Austin, San Marcos, and San Antonio. Keep your eyes and ears open for me please!!! I need all the help I can get, because jobs are so hard to come by with this economy! I'm staying focused on school, I have lots of projects coming up... and of course it's crunch time on my thesis.
While this isn't the happiest moment in my life, I realized how blessed I am, and I am thankful. I am staying focused, having a good time, and just enjoying life. God has an amazing plan for me, and I am just going to enjoy living out His plan. :)
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